This is a hard thing for me to do but it’s my mantra right now. I went to my every other Tuesday “coffee with Sharon” aka my therapist and last Tuesday I shared with her some exciting projects I have been working on. My first was the film making class I had enrolled in which I shared the post just before this one. By the time I met with Sharon I was on my 4th film of the week because the class goal was to create a small day in the life film for a week straight! I showed her my film from the day before and she asked to watch it twice. She loved it, she wanted to know how on earth I did it? To me it felt almost natural to make the film. I took the class to learn a few of the technical editing stuff but filming I explained to my therapist had been something I had done since I was a teenager. I told her about my grandpa who gave me my first camera and who believed in me so much he would have me be a second shooter for a wedding he was video taping. I think when I filmed that wedding with him I was maybe a Junior in high school maybe even younger. I would film my friends after school and on the weekends. I always had ideas brewing in my head about moving pictures or still photo’s. It made me happy, it opened my eyes to the beauty around me. Since I’m a quiet observer it gave me an opportunity to share what I was taking in as I lived my quiet and mindful days. As I sat and talked to Sharon last Tuesday I also told her about the upcoming art walk and the folding of cranes. I had my post cards with me and I shared some with her. She was so excited and happy for me and she reminded me that I need to keep being who God created me to be. She said that when I talked about these things she saw a light inside me that she had not seen in quite sometime. She told me I wasn’t supposed to compare my films to my brilliant teacher or other amazing film makers and she told me not to compare my doodles to other talented artists. She said I was to focus on what I was capable of and the gifts God made me and if I did what made me happy I would begin to feel content.
Now when I go to sleep each night I try and remind myself to just be who God created me to be!